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Sadness and Sorrow

The darkness of my heart awaits the kind words from your lips
My darken eyes long to see the beauty that is you
As I lay here dead and alone
I await to hear the footsteps I have long forgotten the sound of
As the people around see me as if I am not there
I wish for another to approach this shadowy thing that is myself
I cry out to the world
Why Me Why Me
hoping a single spirit
a single person will hear my saddened voice
The darkness of the world as over time consumed me within itself
I sit on a bench on a cold winters day
hoping a single spirit
a single person will greet me with their warm presence
as I sit on the end of my bed
I do not pray
for what I have once put my hope with has abandoned me
left me alone to die slowly inside my blacken heart
If only If only
If only one kind soul
one kind person would bring about their loving smile to me
as I sit in a pool of loneliness I hope for even the slightest bit of happiness
so that I may smile once more
If only If only
If only the brightness of others would rub off on me
so I may frolic in the field of happiness
as I did when I was young
as I grow older the darkness in myself grows more and more each day
I only wish that I may bring up my sadness from behind this fake smile
hoping that someone will come along and make my truly be happy once more
and maybe if I'm lucky
that person will be you

A Lonely Girl

The walls are covered in posters
The room is a mess
The T.V. Is on
She's hardly even dressed
The fan is running
There's clothes on the floor
She's way to weak
To even open the door
There's plates on the table
Food that's rotting away
Her spirits gone
It just couldn't stay
She thinks of the person
That broke her heart
He doesn't even know
She's falling apart
She starts into space
For hours at a time
She speaks so quietly
It's like she's a mime
She misses all the people
That she used to talk to
Nothing will make her happy
Even saying “I love you”
She wants to run away
Far from this place
Leave everyone behind
Leave without a trace
She just wants on thing
And it's to be alone
She wants to run away
And never come home

Secret Strawberry

You are a drug
the more I can't have you
the more I want you
but If I get closer
even just a little
I get screwed up
I need to stay away
for good
I'll let you screw someone else up
I need something better for me
something good....
I need my sweet secret strawberry
my chocolate covered strawberry
it's sweet and nice
and sometimes romantic
and so much healthier for me
only a few know about my secret strawberry
and I'm going to keep it that way...
it's no one else's business...
so I think I'll stick with my sweet strawberry
and leave you forgotten

Spark of Happiness

I love you so dearly
Oh so very much
I sit here
Trying to somehow put my feelings into words
As I listen to the loves songs
Over and over
I realize
There are no words that can describe these feelings
This love I have for you
I don't think I've eve felt this way before
Maybe one
But that's in the past
That was then
You are my now
I desperately hope
That you will be my future as well
Every time I talk to you I smile
None stop smile
I've been in a hell hole mt whole life
And I think I've finally found a spark of happiness
You
Each and everyday that spark gets bigger
Pretty soon you will have engulfed my darkness
And bring nothing but light
Joy
Happiness
Love